Chili & Corn bread for dinner tonight. The Gym and then to bed at an decent hour because I work in the morning.
I am scared to make a Doc appt. with the CF doc in fear of my PFT's and me not wanting to go into the hospital, I just can't afford a tune up on my lungs right now. Is that bad, to do that? I told myself that I will go in for check up when I start going back to the gym so that I can expand my lung capacity.
Also my pancreas flare ups scare me because they are get more and more frequent, I start to dwell on whether or not pancreatitis will kill me. I ask for peace in the matter but it is just so hard not to think about it, when I am suppose to remember to take my enzymes with every bit of food and some drinks I consume.
It just feels like yesterday that I was 19 with 120% lung capacity, what happened why did the progression get worse?