Right now, I can't really say what is wrong but I just don't feel good. I wonder what it's like not having to think about a disease, I don't know what its like not to have that burden on your shoulders each and everyday. There were days when I was a kid that I would forget that I had CF because I didn't feel any different to make me remember.
Those days are over now, I never forget that I have CF, it is on my mind more than anything else, I no longer have a day were I don't feel sick, I feel sick each and everyday of my life.
Sick and tired of being sick and tired can now be my life motto, I may be in a bitter and negative mood right now but that is how things go. I am a human being, I react to circumstances with emotions. When something makes me happy I am joyful. When something makes me sad I am get depressed, it doesn't mean that I am not handling it well, it is a natural reaction.
I guess I am saying this because I don't want people to think I am just negative about the whole thing, I am actually a very joyful person. This is just a moment out of my life where I am tired of feeling crappy.
Sometimes you need to do things to help deal with life, sometimes you just need to let go and do something care free. You will be suprised at how good you feel, don't let your disease control your life physically or mentally, you control it.
Doing those carefree things is the sugar helping the medicine go down, when you do things that say, " I just don't care right now I am going to have fun, it helps you get through the hours and hours of treatments, knowing that you are making a better tomorrow knowing that soon again you will be having fun.
Those days are over now, I never forget that I have CF, it is on my mind more than anything else, I no longer have a day were I don't feel sick, I feel sick each and everyday of my life.
Sick and tired of being sick and tired can now be my life motto, I may be in a bitter and negative mood right now but that is how things go. I am a human being, I react to circumstances with emotions. When something makes me happy I am joyful. When something makes me sad I am get depressed, it doesn't mean that I am not handling it well, it is a natural reaction.
I guess I am saying this because I don't want people to think I am just negative about the whole thing, I am actually a very joyful person. This is just a moment out of my life where I am tired of feeling crappy.
Sometimes you need to do things to help deal with life, sometimes you just need to let go and do something care free. You will be suprised at how good you feel, don't let your disease control your life physically or mentally, you control it.
Doing those carefree things is the sugar helping the medicine go down, when you do things that say, " I just don't care right now I am going to have fun, it helps you get through the hours and hours of treatments, knowing that you are making a better tomorrow knowing that soon again you will be having fun.
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